Over the last couple weeks a lot of things have happened that I was either not expecting, things I was not expecting to come that soon, or things I just never realized before. For me it seemed like it all hit me at once. It was hard for me to come to grips with the fact that a lot of my close friends are graduating. Also within the last week my youth pastor (PM) announced his retirement, which I was expecting, but I didn’t expect to come this fast. It would be nice to find a job and start saving for college, so I’m filling out applications almost every day. Then, to top it all off, I just realized that I’m starting college classes the week after school for a whole month, which means that my last true summer was last year and didn’t even know it!
So by the time this had all hit me I was feeling quite overwhelmed I didn’t know what to think or how to react. So I decided to read my Bible and the Lord gave me the perfect verse. It was in Psalm 61 verse 2. It said, “From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.”
I had a long talk with God in my closet, I argued with him about "why now?!", and wondered if I could really make that much of a difference now that I’m going to be a senior in high school (the pressure's on). But in the end God reassured me that everything was going to be okay, and that all I had to do was trust him and he would get me through everything.
That verse was perfect for that moment. I know the things that were very heavy on my heart are actually not at all big in the grand scheme of life, but they were to me. A lot of my issues are just part of growing up. It amazes me that the God of the universe is sovereign but yet so personal all at the same time. He cares about everything that I’m dealing with no matter how small. The facts that our God is both sovereign and personal leaves me in awe and helps me understand a little better, that there really is nothing better than serving God.
written by Amanda T (High School Junior)
Those are some heavy things for you to sort out. The Lord can definitely give perspective to all these events and your stage in life and education.
ReplyDeleteI am a pastor's wife and often see young people living their dreams and not God's dreams for them. Your blog is inspirational to all ages. God bless you as you follow him.
I am at www.readingheavenward.blogspot.com